I understand that this is what you are trying to avoid, but there genuinely is nothing I would rather be doing right now than watching as a screen tells me that you are typing.
That was mostly intended to be read as sincere.
[ And he waits. And then the message arrives. ]
The aesthetics of things are funny like that, aren't they? It's tempting to think of them as things that only exist if you commit effort to them. It feels like they ought to be. Like everyone should be given points and made to choose how to distribute them. But really, that's only if you want to exert control over them.
I think.
I think that you should observe your photographer friend. Not while they're looking at you. But while they work. Observe while they choose what lens would be best for what subject, or how they arrange a shot or whether they get up before dawn to catch the perfect light or. Or maybe just ask them what they're doing, to be honest, because if they really have a talent for it they probably know more about their art than I do. But I think the sensation of watching someone who's mastered a craft work would communicate better than I can, what it's like to watch you. It's not that you're something that's there to be looked at. It's that there is a task to be performed, and you are performing it so perfectly that the only input anyone could possibly have is to look.
And I think I want that, too. To be always a little out of my depth, knowing that the worst that could come of it is a scathing reply or a deeply personal question.
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That was mostly intended to be read as sincere.
[ And he waits. And then the message arrives. ]
The aesthetics of things are funny like that, aren't they? It's tempting to think of them as things that only exist if you commit effort to them. It feels like they ought to be. Like everyone should be given points and made to choose how to distribute them. But really, that's only if you want to exert control over them.
I think.
I think that you should observe your photographer friend. Not while they're looking at you. But while they work. Observe while they choose what lens would be best for what subject, or how they arrange a shot or whether they get up before dawn to catch the perfect light or. Or maybe just ask them what they're doing, to be honest, because if they really have a talent for it they probably know more about their art than I do. But I think the sensation of watching someone who's mastered a craft work would communicate better than I can, what it's like to watch you. It's not that you're something that's there to be looked at. It's that there is a task to be performed, and you are performing it so perfectly that the only input anyone could possibly have is to look.
And I think I want that, too. To be always a little out of my depth, knowing that the worst that could come of it is a scathing reply or a deeply personal question.