Like the child who grew up on a farm with livestock and foiled the season's meatpacking output by naming all the cows where the butcher could overhear it.
We started this conversation talking about sex and vulnerability, and what I'm capable of when I'm goal-oriented versus when I'm operating on emotion. What you've said is essentially just that I'm better at dropping into and maintaining that goal-oriented state than you are. And...that you have more people you care about than I do.
I can't help but consider the possibility that we're both envious of the other for divergent reasons. I envy you the connections with people that would make it hard for you to kill them. And you envy me the mastery of myself that makes me capable of doing things that others can't.
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We started this conversation talking about sex and vulnerability, and what I'm capable of when I'm goal-oriented versus when I'm operating on emotion. What you've said is essentially just that I'm better at dropping into and maintaining that goal-oriented state than you are. And...that you have more people you care about than I do.
I can't help but consider the possibility that we're both envious of the other for divergent reasons. I envy you the connections with people that would make it hard for you to kill them. And you envy me the mastery of myself that makes me capable of doing things that others can't.